I'm here sitting alone in my new home. My boyfriend, Andrew and I, rented a nice apartment together just recently. We moved in alomost one week ago. It's a nice little studio. Odd enough way back when.. lol. things are working out better than exspected.

I know 3 years ago.. i had this instinct i knew what was going to happen, this insight of fate for the both of us. I had this flash of destiny that i'd marry this man some day and we're living together in our OWN place!! Holy hell.

Anywho, i'm working. 7 months+ at Gottschalks dept store, which is going out of buisness. How gay. I'm stressed about some things. My newest is feeling like a mother to a man i'm supposed to be marrying someday. I feel like i'm obligated to do all these chores to make his life perfect. Like his mother did.. UGH!! its fucking annoying as hell.

I can't complain too much though. I'm happy where i'm at. I'm glad that were alone, away from his mom, no one to intrude on our private buisness and disturb us.



::::TODAY::::
I had this crazy daydream.. what if i was a serial killer? I really want to know someday what it feels like to decapitate a human corpse. I mean, literally just slice though the flesh of a disease infested corpse. Call me crazy.. but its just a thought. Not like i'd ever do that.. but we all have our psychological nitches that keep us sane. Something about balancing out the brain between bad and good or the non-socials who don't.. lmao


----And swine flu... which is everywhere. a school near by my parents got shut down because it had some cases and they all sent the kids home.. hehe I haven't gotten it.